My Family

I haven’t been posting lately. It has been more than a week =(.

Last week, was Easter and it was also the start of my Term/Semester 1 school break. However what I had anticipated to be a holiday of relaxation and time for myself wasn’t quite what I had expected.

Last Monday (Easter Monday), I had work. My mum came at around 6pm and she went up to the back. She talked to the manager and I thought I had miscollected money at the cash register. She then came up and told me that my grandpa was at the emergency department in Auckland hospital and that they had called an ambulance. I was quite worried. My grandfather had been disagnosed with Lymphonbial (or however you spell it) Cancer in 2004. He had an operation in China and around 10 times of Chemotherapy. I was really shocked when I found out then, because I looked up to my grandfather a lot.

When I saw him at the hospital, he was lying there and looked unalive. I nearly cried. He was also very confused and some things he said were really offtopic. He had a fading voice and didn’t move much.

After a while (few hours), a Chinese lady (which we found out later was a doctor-in-training) came and did a few taps here and there on his body.  She then was about to speak in Chinese to my grandpa about him having Cancer, however the problem was he hadn’t known for the past 3 years. Those who read may think what out family is doing is completely wrong and cruel, but because my grandfather is a quiet/shy person and thinks a lot, we felt he wouldn’t take the news well at all, and may be fatal… Then again all you readers may think otherwise. We always told him we were giving him nutritional fluids (Chemo) and that he was just getting old. My mum was quick and asked her to speak outside. This was when the doctor had told me and my mum that there was a high chance of my grandfather developing a repalse of Cancer and this time in the Liver. She also told us he had a few months to live. =( I was really sad. In my mind I felt like this was a dream and I really wanted to break down and cry. I wanted to pull out, couldn’t believe this was real. Wanted to run out of the hospital and pretend this didn’t happen. However it didn’t help at all…

I was there with my grandfather that night to look after him because he didn’t know English. As the night progressed, I sometimes had feelings of this being fake and we would go home fine in the morning. However the thought of the life expectancy counted in months, I was then again snapped back to reality.

After numerous blood pressure/heart beat and temperature tests, morning arrived. My mum and cousin came and I was a bit relieved. Later we found out we could leave. Maybe my thinking of everything being a joke was real? No.

As I thought everything was getting better I got a phone call from my grandma in the morning on Wednesday saying I had to go to the hospital again. My grandpa wasn’t alright and wasn’t eating, talking and just felt like sleeping. Doctors came again and repeated what was already been told to us about the rest of his life and his condition, each time I heard it a I had heavy feeling in my chest.

My grandpa continued to live in the hospital for the remainder of the week and this week (currently still there at time of posting). I was there at night looking after him mostly everyday. As each day passed I somewhat see improvement in his character and health. Before he had trouble going to the bathroom. Now he can go there himself. He had increased his appetite a little. I am so glad. Let’s hope things get a lot better! So, if you are reading this and have a moment, if you could spare a thought and hope my grandfather would get better it would mean a lot to me. 

I know all this supernatural stuff is hard to believe. However I’ve thought about it alot, and although scientifically it may show nothing but I still think humans have a somewhat spiritual aura or power surrounding them. It’s giving off mana or something. Like heat. I mean the power of us being alive is amazing and I think that power can be transfered from one person to another through love, friendship and in times of need. Luck, protection are also examples.

So please, and thanks. Let’s all hope he will get better.

Me